I Know You Think This Will Never Get Better

Several years ago, I wrote a story about death by suicide: my own life-wrenching experience surrounding my father’s suicide just before Christmas, 1970 when I was 20 years old; and about the doors that experience ultimately enabled me to open, step thru and into conversations that I never imagined having.  Conversations that changed my life–and lives of others.

I recently submitted the story to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (afsp.org).  A wonderful organization.  Fortuitously, one of the team members my daughter Brittany worked with on a suicide prevention program at UCSD in La Jolla is now the Chief Medical Officer at AFSP.   They put the story up on their blog on April 30, 2019.   Here is a link to

I dedicate this story in memory of Brian, my father Grover C. Gauntt Jr, and my mentor and dear friend Horace L. Hahn.

Warm regards and continued healing